Prologue · Mateo · Modena, August 2014
She gives me the pass on a Tuesday afternoon, in the shade behind the karting workshop, with her hair full of August dust and her hand shaking just enough to notice.
She does not look at me when she gives it to me. She looks at the pass. She has folded it once, neatly, so the photo is on the inside.
“Don’t open it now,” she says.
“When,” I say.
“When you race in F1,” she says. “Or whenever you need it. Whichever comes first.”
I want to tell her she could come with me. I want to tell her we’re nineteen and twenty-two and she has more talent in her left hand than half the boys in this academy have in their entire bodies. I want to tell her I’ve been writing her name on the inside of my helmet for six weeks.
I do not say any of these things.
She kisses me, once, on the cheekbone. Not the mouth. The cheekbone. “Win,” she says. “Win for me. I’ll know when you do.”
She is on a flight back to Maranello the next morning. She is at her father’s funeral the morning after that. She does not come back to Modena. I do not chase her.
I open the pass that night, in the dorm, alone.
On the back, in faded blue ballpoint:
— for luck.
— L.
It is eleven years before I see her again.
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